Things have changed significantly since my first lake experience.
For one, tubing seemed fun to me back then.
Now, I would take reading a book on the deck over that any day.
Secondly, back then, we were the kids.
Now, we all HAVE kids.
Thirdly, my swimming attire has changed.
I'll leave it at that (subconscious sneers..."of course you will, fatty!").
And finally, I appreciate lake time MUCH more than I used to.
|My girls and three of my nieces, having fun in the deck kiddie pool.|
You see, truth be told...relaxing does NOT come easy to me. I'm bad at it.
If you looked at the condition of my house right now, you would not believe me. It's horribly messy. I would take a "before" picture to share with you, but I would be absolutely humiliated and some government agency would probably feel obligated to come check on my children.
Regardless of the condition of my current living space, it is just hard for me to turn off my mind.
Right now, I sit at the office typing this and am realizing that I started this post AT THE LAKE last THURSDAY NIGHT/FRIDAY MORNING because I could NOT SLEEP.
I start thinking about a project at the house. I read a book. I pin something on Pinterest. An idea comes to me for my classroom. And that is it. My restful night of sleep is gone. Gone.
Instead, my mind starts running a hundred miles an hour, with ideas coming here and there, new thoughts, specific plans, necessary materials. It's serious. Probably a disease.
Needless to say, it is hard for me to relax.
But over the past year, I have been really working to figure out a way to relax with my family. To watch them grow up. To spend time with them...eating supper, doing crafts, playing outside. I talked a lot about this realization in this post a few weeks ago.
So lake time was different this year. Because I was determined to relax.
I took my iPad so I could read and by-golly, I finished three books. 400+ pages each. I'm reading the Redemption Series by Karen Kingsbury, by the way. Sooooooooo good.
I saw this quote and loved it. And it's so true. Over the last few years, I've had ups and downs...frustrations and satisfaction. But I'm beginning to learn that it is a true balance.
As my dad told me one night when I was crying for no reason, "Hannah...you can't be all things to all people." I have made the decision to be okay letting go sometimes. And I have made the decision to hold on to the things that are the most important. <3