Thursday, March 28, 2013

Beautiful Mess.

Well, the snow is still sticking around. It is 65 degrees outside and the snow is still just hanging out over there in the shadow of the trees I am looking at right now. The snow is beautiful. The long-awaited sunshine is beautiful. The mud-filled yard with little green blades of grass poking up out of them is quite beautiful also. A beautiful mess.

Lately, I've been a bit of a beautiful mess myself.

I am trying hard to do good. To be good. To please people. To get caught up. To stay caught up. To declutter. The list goes on and on.

To change the lives of children at school, to provide memories for families at the studio, and to be a good wife and mom. I have said on here many times that the wife and mom part is the part that I neglect most often, unfortunately. And you know what? That is simply not okay.

In my beautiful messiness...I should be beautifully and joyfully messy with my two darling daughters and my wonderful husband. And so today, I drove right through town and out the other side. I stopped at the mailbox, grabbed the package off of the front porch, and went inside to change clothes.

And now...here I sit. Watching Claire-bear play outside, waiting for Matthew & Harlee to get home. I'm going to clean the car out and breathe the fresh air.

The studio will still be there tomorrow night. The laundry will be there tomorrow. The dishes, messy bathroom, and weeds I'm looking at that need to be pulled will be there tomorrow.

But this moment...this exact moment...it won't be here tomorrow. And I intend to make sure I don't miss it.

So sorry to those of you waiting on proofs or prints. I have worked and worked to get caught up after snow days and Internet troubles and school evening activities.

But for tonight, I have to play wife and mom. I have to warm up the leftover taco soup and make the grilled cheese. I have to laugh with my babies, sit on the porch and take in the moment. I have to wear that hat first always.

Some days I stink at that.

But not today. <3



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