Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Dreamer.

Spring Break.  Sigh.

All school year, I've been planning for all of the progress I'm going to make over this one week...my beloved spring break.  

I made a list MONTHS ago of things I wanted to accomplish over this week.  And to be honest, I've met some of my goals.  Of course, my lists are always extremely long and drawn out and more detailed than anyone would ever need.  Not to mention the fact that they're completely unrealistic.

Anybody else have this problem?  You have much higher hopes for yourself than would ever possibly happen?  Yeah, me too.  And it's okay.  

Small progress is better than no progress.

The weirdest thing about this break so far is that I cannot sleep at night and when I finally do fall asleep, you would expect me to be able to sleep in.  Nope...4:00, 5:00, 6:00 a.m. and I'm wide awake and ready to start the day.

And here I am right now, when I should be utterly exhausted because I didn't sleep last night and have been going strong all day, wide-awake and thinking and planning for the weeks to come.

Pinterest definitely doesn't help my sleeping problem. 

Yes, there are wonderful ideas on Pinterest and I've even used some of them.  Probably less than 1% of what I've pinned, if we're being honest.  But it's fun to pin and dream and pin some more.

And so tonight, as everyone else in my family is snoozing away, I'm sitting here dreaming.  

Dreaming of actually keeping up with my blog eventually and not simply posting every few months. Dreaming of this blog being a journal of family progress, memories, and things I want to remember.

I'm dreaming of what life will be like when I no longer run a photography studio.  I can't even imagine it, to be honest.  To just be a fulltime teacher.  A wife.  A mom.  A mom to three little girls.

I'm dreaming of a house that is decluttered and clean and organized.  Dreaming of a time in my life when I don't feel the need to keep every single little thing people have given me.  When my house includes ONLY items that we love and use regularly.

I'm dreaming of meals on my table every night that I've planned and purchased frugally...like I used to.  Family devotions around that table.  Good conversation about school and church and life.

I'm dreaming of summer nights with two little girls running around the yard chasing fireflies, while baby sister sits with me on the patio.  Dreaming of family storytime by the fireplace in the fall.  Dreaming of dressing up my three lovelies in matching Christmas dresses next December.  

Dreaming.  Dreaming.  Dreaming.

And you know what?  I feel like this spring break has been the start of something.  

The start of me being able to put some of those dreams and goals and plans into place.  

The start of me being able to let go of some things, in order to make room for things that really, truly matter.  

The start of me being able to feel contentment and peace and excitement for what's coming to our little family.  A bigger focus on my classroom planning and instruction.  More free time with my family.  And of course, Baby M in June.

This spring break has brought me a glimpse of a wonderful future in our little, cozy home.  A glimpse of three precious girls and many, many memories.  

And based on these glimpses into our future, I think it's safe to say that dreams really do come true. <3

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